For you...I will be waiting...6 months.

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I'm going insane...this pain has become more unbearable than I remembered...
I wonder if you feel the same way...are you suffering too?

They say...if you love someone set them free. If they return to you then it's meant to be.  
I alternate between my hopes and fears...
All I know is that despite how I try to go on like nothing happened,
I will always be here waiting for you to come back and find me, to fix my heart once more.  
Teach me how to smile again...I have forgotten how.  

I struggle everyday to refrain from contacting you because you said you need to keep your distance...
You say you love me but we can't be together right now..what does that mean?
Should I wait endlessly for you?  Is that what you want?

You say it will be at least six months before we know the answer...
I'll have to leave my heart in the hands of time...

The chances that you read this are slim but if you do...can you answer me?
Don't I deserve a proper explanation?
Don't I mean more to you than something you can just cast aside because you're leaving for awhile?
You used to treat me like a treasure but do you know? I feel like I'm disposable to you.  

If you read this, don't you think I deserve a proper farewell before you leave for your adventure?
If I knew that night was the last night...I would have held on to you longer.  

There are still two weeks left...I'm waiting...waiting...
Lao Tzu said "Being loved deeply gives you strength. Loving someone deeply gives you courage."
It seems like you have the strength and I have the courage.  We used to have both...

If you are reading this, I promise I'll work hard and be all the things you loved.
I'll work hard to become even more amazing.  
I'll do my best to stop wasting time asking questions no one can answer...
I'll occupy myself by immersing myself in artwork....creativity...
I'll escape from reality by reading novels, studying foreign languages
I'll dedicate even more time in volunteering, making others happy.

All these things I'll do to keep my life interesting so I can share all my experiences with you when you're done being so distant...

And you? Will you write down all the exciting things you'll encounter in that foreign country to share with me when you return?

Six months is not so bad if you can spare a few moments once in awhile to let me know you're still ok...
A six month long test...I don't know if I can face it alone...can we work together?

I miss you.


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hibakallas's avatar
OMG - am going through the same thing!!!